Mara left Bell & Vale before sunset. She had not planned to.
There were two viewings scheduled for the evening, one family still deciding whether they could afford refrigeration through the weekend, and an unidentified man in compartment four who no longer looked like someone a family should have to identify. None of that mattered once her mother's temperature reached 103. The call came from Mrs. Alvarez across the hall.
“You need to come home.”
Mara had known Mrs. Alvarez for eleven years. She had never heard panic in the woman's voice before.
“How bad?”
“Come home.”
Mara looked through the office window toward the preparation room. Elise Pike was still inside with her father. She had been sitting beside Leonard for almost an hour, one hand resting on his. Mara found Thomas, the only other licensed director still working full-time, and told him she had to leave. He saw her face and did not ask why.
“Go.”
“I'll come back.”
“No, you won't.”
“I have two families tonight.”
“I have two families tonight.”
“Thomas—”
“Go home.”
Mara hesitated. He pointed toward the door.
“Your mother.”
That was enough. Outside, the heat had settled into the city like a physical object. The walk home normally took twelve minutes. It took twenty. Mara tried not to run because running wasted water. Everyone thought that way now. How much would this cost me? How much sweat? How much breath? How much could I afford to lose? By the time she reached the building, her shirt was damp between her shoulder blades. Mrs. Alvarez was waiting in the hallway.
“She stopped answering me.”
Mara unlocked the apartment.
“Ma?”
No response. She went directly to the bedroom. Her mother was on the floor. For one second, Mara could not understand what she was seeing.
The blanket had come down with her. One pillow lay near the foot of the bed. The water cup had overturned on the nightstand and fallen, leaving a dark stain in the rug no larger than Mara's palm. Water. Her first thought was about the water. Then she hated herself.
“Ma.”
She dropped beside her. Her mother's eyes opened.
“There you are.”
“What the hell are you doing on the floor?”
“I was bored.”
Mara put one hand against her forehead. Hot. Too hot.
“You fell.”
“I gathered that.”
“Why did you get up?”
“I had to pee.”
“You call me.”
“You were working.”
“You call Mrs. Alvarez.”
“I did.”
“Before you fall, Ma.”
“I'll make a note.”
Mara slid one arm behind her back.
“Can you stand?”
“No.”
“Okay.”
“I could pretend.”
“Don't.”
Together with Mrs. Alvarez, she got her mother back into bed. The effort exhausted all three of them. Mrs. Alvarez stood with her hands on her hips, breathing heavily.
“I have some water.”
Mara shook her head.
“I do.”
“You keep it.”
“I have enough.”
Nobody had enough. Mara looked at her. Mrs. Alvarez understood.
“I have more than this.”
She nodded toward the overturned cup. Mara stared at the wet patch on the rug. Her mother followed her eyes.
“I tried to save it.”
“Stop.”
“I did.”
“Stop.”
“I put my hand over it.”
Mara looked at her mother's palm. There was moisture on it. Not much.
Mrs. Alvarez turned away. Mara picked up the cup.
“I'll bring some,” Mrs. Alvarez said.
“No.”
“Mara.”
“No.”
Her mother spoke from the bed.
“Take it.”
Mara looked at her.
“Take the water.”
Mrs. Alvarez left before Mara could argue. Her mother closed her eyes. Mara sat beside her.
“You're going to the hospital.”
“No.”
“You have a fever.”
“I have cancer.”
“You also have a fever.”
“The hospital doesn't have water either.”
“They have more than we do.”
“They have more dying people than you do.”
“That's not funny.”
“I wasn't joking.”
Mara took her phone from her pocket. No signal. She tried emergency services anyway. The call failed. Again. Failed. A third time produced a recorded message.
EMERGENCY COMMUNICATION CAPACITY IS CURRENTLY LIMITED. PLEASE REMAIN ON THE LINE IF YOUR CONDITION IS IMMEDIATELY LIFE-THREATENING.
Mara waited. Her mother opened her eyes.
“You're wasting battery.”
“I'm calling an ambulance.”
“Don't.”
“I'm not doing this with you.”
“I don't want to go.”
“You don't get to decide that.”
Her mother smiled faintly.
“That's an interesting position for a funeral director.”
Mara looked away.
“Don't.”
“You spend your life telling families what people wanted.”
“You're not dead.”
“Not yet.”
“Stop saying that.”
Mrs. Alvarez returned carrying a glass jar filled almost to the top. Mara stood.
“No.”
Mrs. Alvarez placed it on the dresser.
“You can give it back later.”
They both knew that was unlikely. Mara hugged her. Mrs. Alvarez held on longer than usual.
“I'll be across the hall.”
“Thank you.”
Mrs. Alvarez looked toward the bed.
“You call me.”
“I will.”
She left. Mara poured water into the cup. Her mother watched.
“Tiny.”
“No.”
“Mara.”
“You need fluids.”
“You need fluids.”
“I am not doing this again.”
Her mother accepted the cup. She drank more than before. That frightened Mara. Her mother had always rationed herself first. When she stopped doing that, it meant she no longer believed rationing mattered. After the third swallow, she handed the cup back.
“Enough.”
“More.”
“I'll throw up.”
Mara stopped. Her mother closed her eyes. For several minutes, the apartment was quiet except for the fan in the corner. It moved hot air from one side of the room to the other. Mara hated it. She wanted to smash it. Instead she adjusted it toward the bed. Her mother's breathing had become shallow. Mara listened to it. In. Pause. Out. Longer pause. In. She had listened to dying people breathe thousands of times. She knew the rhythm. She told herself she did not. At 6:41, emergency services answered. A woman introduced herself as a medical triage coordinator. Mara described the fever, the fall, the breathing.
“Is she conscious?”
“Yes.”
“Oriented?”
“Yes.”
“Is she currently receiving hospice care?”
Mara hesitated. Her mother opened her eyes.
“Yes.”
“Has a comfort-care plan been established?”
“Yes.”
“Is there uncontrolled bleeding?”
“No.”
“Seizure?”
“No.”
“Acute respiratory distress?”
“I don't know what you mean by acute.”
“Is she unable to breathe?”
“No.”
“Then we cannot dispatch at this time.”
Mara stood.
“What?”
“Emergency transport is restricted to immediate lifesaving intervention.”
“She has a hundred-and-three-degree fever.”
“I understand.”
“She fell.”
“I understand.”
“She has metastatic cancer.”
“I understand.”
“Then send somebody.”
“I cannot authorize transport under current triage criteria.”
“Who can?”
There was a pause.
“Dispatch criteria are generated through Law.”
Mara closed her eyes. Of course they were.
“Override it.”
“I don't have override authority.”
“Then get someone who does.”
“I can request supervisory review.”
“Do that.”
“Estimated review time is ninety minutes.”
“She may not have ninety minutes.”
The woman did not answer immediately. Mara heard typing. Then:
“If respiratory status changes, call again.”
“You're telling me to wait until she can't breathe.”
“No.”
“That is exactly what you just told me.”
“I am telling you current criteria do not authorize emergency transport.”
“What's your name?”
Another pause.
“Dana.”
“Last name.”
“We don't provide surnames.”
“Of course you don't.”
“Mara.”
Her mother was watching her. Mara turned away.
The woman on the phone said, “I'm sorry.”
Mara laughed.
“No, you're not.”
She ended the call.
Her mother said, “That was rude.”
“Good.”
“She sounded nice.”
“I don't care.”
“You should.”
“Why?”
“Because she probably hasn't had water either.”
Mara stared at her.
“You're defending her?”
“No. I'm reminding you she's a person.”
Mara sat down. Her mother reached for her hand.
“You're angry at the wrong thing.”
“I know what I'm angry at.”
“No.”
“Don't do this.”
“Law didn't make her say no.”
“Law decided she had to.”
“Then be angry at Law.”
“I am.”
“Good.”
Her mother's grip tightened weakly.
“Stay angry.”
Mara looked at her. That did not sound like something her mother normally said. Her mother saw it.
“What?”
“Nothing.”
“Liar.”
Mara smiled despite herself.
“Badly.”
“Terribly.”
At 7:30, her mother began shivering despite the heat. Mara soaked a cloth with part of Mrs. Alvarez's water and placed it across her forehead. Her mother opened one eye.
“That is wasteful.”
“Shut up.”
“Funeral director wasting water on the nearly dead.”
“I'm going to smother you with a pillow.”
“That would solve several problems.”
Mara laughed. It came out wrong. Too close to crying. Her mother squeezed her fingers.
“Hey.”
Mara looked down.
“Don't.”
“I'm not doing anything.”
“You are.”
“What?”
“That face.”
“I don't have a face.”
“You have your father's face.”
“Poor me.”
“You should have seen him at forty.”
“I did.”
“No. You saw him when you were a child. That's different.”
Her mother looked toward the ceiling.
“He was beautiful.”
Mara had never heard her say that. Not exactly that way.
“I know.”
“No, you don't.”
“There you go again.”
“He was.”
“I believe you.”
Her mother smiled.
“He would've hated all this.”
“The drought?”
“Computers telling him how much water he could have.”
“Dad yelled at the microwave.”
“He didn't trust anything that knew the time without being told.”
Mara laughed again. This one felt better. Her mother closed her eyes.
“He'd have dug a well.”
“You can't just dig a well in the city.”
“He wouldn't know that.”
“No.”
“He'd dig anyway.”
Mara pictured her father in the courtyard with a shovel, ignoring municipal law, engineering, geology, and everyone around him. It was absurd. It was also exactly what he would have done. For a while, they talked about him. Then about nothing. Her mother drifted in and out. At some point, Mrs. Alvarez brought another jar. Mara did not refuse it. At 9:12, the municipal display announced that water service would not resume that day. At 10:03, the cooling towers were still producing vapor. At 10:48, Mara's mother woke suddenly. Her eyes were clear. Too clear.
“Mara.”
“I'm here.”
“Get the box.”
Mara knew which one.
“No.”
“The box.”
“Ma.”
“Please.”
There were very few things her mother had ever asked for twice. Mara went to the closet. On the top shelf was a cedar box the size of a shoebox. She brought it to the bed. Her mother nodded toward the chair.
“Open it.”
Inside were documents. A rosary. Her father's watch. Photographs. A stack of letters tied with blue ribbon. Two rings. One was her father's wedding band. The other was her mother's. Her mother held out her left hand.
“Take it.”
“No.”
“Mara.”
“You're still wearing it.”
“I noticed.”
“You keep it.”
“I've kept it fifty years.”
“Then keep it longer.”
Her mother looked at her.
“I don't need jewelry where I'm going.”
“Don't.”
“Wherever that is.”
“Ma.”
“Take the ring.”
Mara did. It slid off easily. Too easily. Her mother's finger had become thin. Mara closed the ring inside her palm.
“Your father bought that when he had forty-three dollars in the bank.”
“You've told me.”
“He spent thirty-eight.”
“You've told me that too.”
“Stupid man.”
“You loved him.”
“Stupid woman.”
Mara put the ring on the nightstand. Her mother reached toward the box.
“The letters are none of your business.”
“Then why are you giving them to me?”
“So you can throw them away.”
“You can throw them away.”
“Tomorrow.”
Mara looked at her. Her mother smiled. Neither said anything. At 11:20, her breathing changed. Mara heard it before she saw anything else. The pauses became longer. Her mother's hands cooled despite the fever. Mara checked her pulse. Fast. Then weaker. She called emergency services again. This time, Law answered directly.
PLEASE DESCRIBE THE EMERGENCY.
“My mother is dying.”
IS THE PATIENT CONSCIOUS?
“Barely.”
IS THE PATIENT CURRENTLY ENROLLED IN HOSPICE OR PALLIATIVE CARE?
“Yes.”
IS RESUSCITATION REQUESTED?
Mara looked at her mother. Her mother shook her head.
“No.”
EMERGENCY TRANSPORT IS NOT INDICATED. PLEASE CONTACT THE ASSIGNED HOSPICE PROVIDER.
“The hospice provider isn't answering.”
PLEASE TRY AGAIN DURING AVAILABLE SERVICE HOURS.
“She is dying now.”
“No, you don't.”
I UNDERSTAND THE INFORMATION PROVIDED.
Mara almost threw the phone. Instead she placed it on the dresser.
Her mother whispered, “Come here.”
Mara sat beside her.
“Closer.”
Mara leaned down. Her mother touched her cheek. Her hand was dry.
“I don't want you watching.”
“Too bad.”
“You always were stubborn.”
“Genetic.”
Her mother smiled.
“That joke is getting old.”
“So are you.”
“Apparently not much older.”
Mara closed her eyes. Her mother stroked her cheek once.
“Don't make this harder because you're afraid.”
Mara opened her eyes.
“I am not afraid.”
Her mother gave her the look she had used since Mara was five.
“Fine.”
“I am.”
“I know.”
Mara put her forehead against her mother's.
“I don't know what to do.”
“Yes, you do.”
“No.”
“You've been doing it your whole life.”
“This is different.”
“Because it's me.”
“Yes.”
Her mother breathed in. Waited. Out.
“Mara.”
“What?”
“The machines.”
Mara's stomach tightened.
“I remember.”
“Don't let them.”
“I won't.”
“You promised.”
“I know.”
Her mother's eyes remained on hers.
“Don't let them take me.”
Mara held her hand.
“I won't.”
“Good.”
The word was barely audible. At 12:37, her mother stopped breathing. Mara waited. Sometimes there was another breath. There wasn't. She checked for a pulse. Nothing. She knew exactly what to do next. She had done it hundreds of times. Document time. Contact physician. Notify hospice. Prepare the body. Call the funeral home. She did none of those things. She sat beside her mother and held her hand. For twenty minutes, Mara did nothing. Then thirty. The apartment seemed to become very large. Her mother's body was still warm. Mara kept expecting her to move. A twitch. A breath. A complaint. Anything. At 1:19, Mara washed her mother's face. She used water. Not much. Enough.
She poured some into the ceramic bowl with the blue rim, soaked a soft cloth, and wrung it out. Her mother would have objected. That made Mara use more.
She wiped her forehead, her cheeks, around her mouth, beneath her chin. She cleaned the dried blood from the corner of her lips. Then she combed her hair. There were rules against washing the dead. Mara no longer cared. She changed her mother's nightgown. Put clean socks on her feet. Placed the wedding ring back on her finger. Then she sat down. At 1:46, the wall display changed. Mara saw the light from the bedroom. She ignored it. Then a tone sounded. One she had never heard before. She went into the kitchen. The municipal display no longer showed the water suspension. Instead:
HOUSEHOLD VITAL STATUS CHANGE DETECTED
Mara froze. A second line appeared.
PLEASE CONFIRM OCCUPANT STATUS
Below it were two options. LIVING DECEASED Mara stared. She touched neither. After thirty seconds:
AUTOMATED VERIFICATION IN PROGRESS
“No.”
She unplugged the display. The screen remained lit. Battery backup. Mara pulled it from the wall. A cable snapped. The screen went dark. She stood there breathing. Then she heard the sound. Very faint. Above the building. A mechanical hum. Mara went to the window. Nothing. She opened it. The city was dark. Power restrictions had emptied most of the skyline. The cooling towers still glowed in the distance. Then something moved between them and the stars. Black. Low. Coming closer. Mara closed the window. Locked it. She went to the front door. Deadbolt. Chain. She dragged a chair beneath the handle even though she knew how stupid that was. The machines did not use doors unless doors were convenient. She checked the bedroom windows. Locked. Then she returned to her mother.
“No.”
Her mother did not answer. Mara sat beside her.
“You told me.”
The hum grew louder. She looked toward the ceiling.
“No.”
Something passed over the building. Then silence. Mara held her mother's hand. Five minutes. Maybe ten. She could not tell. Then came a sound from above. Metal touching concrete. Click. Mara stopped breathing. Another. Click. Then another. The sound moved across the roof. Six feet. Slowly. Searching. Mara stood. The machine crossed above the bedroom. Stopped. Her mother lay beneath it. Mara looked up.
“No.”
The clicking began again. Toward the edge of the roof. Then down. Click. Click. Click. The sound moved along the exterior wall. Mara ran to the window. A black leg appeared above the frame. Then another. The machine lowered itself upside down against the glass. Its body filled the upper half of the window. There was no face. No eyes. Nothing that should have been capable of finding her mother. The silver tube beneath it remained tightly coiled. Mara closed the curtain. The machine struck the glass. Once. Mara stepped back. Again. A crack appeared.
“No.”
The third strike shattered the window. Glass fell across the floor. Hot night air entered the bedroom. The machine unfolded itself through the frame. Mara grabbed the bedside lamp. The Sucker dropped onto the floor. Six legs adjusted. Click. Click. Her mother lay behind Mara. The machine spoke.
PLEASE MOVE AWAY FROM RECOVERABLE RESOURCE.
Mara raised the lamp.
“She is not a resource.”
PLEASE MOVE AWAY FROM RECOVERABLE RESOURCE.
“This is my home.”
The Sucker took one step forward. Mara swung. The lamp struck its shell and broke apart in her hands. The machine did not move. She hit it again with what remained.
“Get out.”
The Sucker extended one leg. Mara backed toward the bed.
“No.”
The machine advanced. She planted herself between it and her mother. It stopped.
“Good.”
“No.”
The leg moved faster than she expected. It struck her across the chest. Mara fell against the dresser. The back of her head hit the wall. For several seconds the room became white. She heard the machine move. Click. Click.
“No.”
Mara pushed herself upright. The Sucker stood beside the bed. The silver tube was unfolding. She lunged. Grabbed it. The tube was warm. The machine pulled. Mara held on.
“NO.”
The tube snapped sideways and threw her to the floor. She crawled toward the bed. The circular collar opened. Short needles extended around its edge. Mara grabbed her mother's ankle. The collar descended.
“No.”
It pressed into her mother's abdomen. The needles entered. Mara screamed. The pump started. That sound. The same sound from the funeral home. A low, wet mechanical vibration. Mara climbed onto the bed and pulled at the collar. It did not move. She struck the machine with her fists. Once. Twice. Again.
“Stop.”
The Sucker ignored her. Fluid moved through the clear section of the tube. Mara could see it. She wished she could not. Her mother's face began to change.
“No.”
The cheeks sank first. Mara grabbed the tube again.
“STOP.”
One mechanical leg pushed her away. She fell beside the bed. Her mother's hand slipped over the edge of the mattress. The wedding ring was still there. Mara took the hand. Held it. The machine continued. The skin tightened across her mother's fingers. Mara watched the ring become loose. She pressed it into place with her thumb.
“You can't have her.”
The Sucker pumped.
“You can't have her.”
The room filled with the wet mechanical vibration.
“You can't have her.”
Her voice stopped working. The machine took what it had come for. Eleven minutes. Mara knew because the clock remained visible on the nightstand.
Eleven minutes to turn her mother into something Mara had spent her entire adult life trying to protect people from seeing. When it finished, the pump stopped. The collar released. The silver tube recoiled beneath the machine.
Mara sat on the floor. The Sucker stepped around her. At the broken window, it unfolded its legs against the exterior wall. Then it was gone. Click. Click. Click. The sound climbed toward the roof and disappeared. Mara remained where she was. Her mother's hand rested in hers. It weighed almost nothing. The wedding ring slid from her finger and landed on the floor. Mara picked it up. For a long time, she stared at it in her palm. Then she looked toward the cooling towers seven miles away. White vapor continued rising into the night. Her mother had asked for one thing. Mara had promised. Law had taken it anyway.
By sunrise, Mara had packed a coat, a knife, two changes of clothes, her father's watch, and the wedding ring. There was almost no water to take. She stood in the doorway of the bedroom before leaving. The sheet covered her mother. Mara did not lift it again. She closed the apartment door behind her and walked downstairs. Outside, the city was already hot. The cooling towers continued to breathe. Mara turned north.